I am SO "Old" now...WAH!

Well, I turned 27 over the weekend...I am now on the downhill slope to 30! Actually, age has never bothered me one bit. This is probably because Adam and I have been together for 10 years. We started dating a month before my 17th birthday...but were really good friends for about a year before that. Essentially, we have grown up together. Sometimes I feel like we are still those 22 year olds, just married...but how did we end up with 2 kids?! Then I think oh my goodness, how am I 27? It seems unreal. But here we are...10 years later in life, 2 beautiful kids, married for 5 years...but yes I still feel like we are 17.

I had a pretty good birthday, probably the best I could of had given the circumstances. It was the 2nd year in a row Adam missed my birthday. He was home the year before that, and we actually went on a date. The year before that...I was insanely busy packing for our trip to the states, while he laid on the couch in severe pain because he cut his cornea on Allie's first birthday. The year before that, he was deployed, before that we were living seperate (I was in the states, he was in Germany trying to get me moved over there), the year before that he was in basic training. So basically, since my 21st birthday, he has only been home for 2 of them! Its crazy when I think about it, but its also why I really could care less about it.

Allie was the sweetest thing. She was so excited about it being my birthday from the moment she woke up, until she went to bed, she was wishing me a HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY! We went to the dollar store with my mom, and she went down the aisle and found a pack of beaded necklaces and hid them behind her back. She went running over to my mom and said, "Mom mom we HAVE to buy these for my mom, she is just going to love them! Hide them in your basket." When we got home, she proudly took them out of the bag and said, "These are for you mommy, I think you will love them!" I wanted to cry right then and there. She really was so proud of her gift. I went out to get a pedicure and manicure (after getting a birthday call from my husband!) and my mom and sister said she was so upset over not having a birthday card for me. So my sister went out to get a cake and a card for her to give me. Like I said, my birthday has not been a big deal to me for years. I never ask for gifts, I can't even think of what I would want when my mom hounds me asking. However, Allie made me love my birthday this year. She really reminded of how sweet and genuinely loving she is. She has such a big, big heart. She is my biggest helper, and even on the days when she is my biggest trouble and stressor, I do not know what I would do without her! She even has the "Spit it out!" and putting her finger in Emily's mouth to search for what Em just ate that she shouldn't of, down pat! I love my girls, and I am blessed to have such loving girls, even on the days when I want to cry because I feel like I can't take another day of doing this alone...they are the ones that get me thru, they make Adam being gone a little bit easier. They will get me to December.

Trying to go back...

I am trying to get us back to our healthier habits. When Allie was little, I was on top of what she ate all of the time. She probably never had syrup before she was 2, and even then it was rare. We never had cookies in the house, except for the rare occasion. I used whole wheat flour in a lot of recipes, all we ate was whole wheat pasta, her snack choices consisted of teddy grahams, yogurt, fruit, string cheese or fruit snacks, just for example. For breakfast she ate whole wheat waffles sprinkles with cinnamon usually with fruit. My family used to tease me about lightening up, because having things like donuts and ice cream were getting "treats". Allie does not even like soda (thankfully!) and even requested splash juice (V8 Splash) at her 4th birthday party while everyone around her was drinking soda. After having Emily, obviously I would go for things what were easier, more convienent and less expensive. But really that's no excuse. I want Allie and Emily to understand the difference between healthy foods and "junk". I remind Allie of these foods, especially when she has a tummy ache or if she has trouble going potty. She immediately says, oh no, my belly hurts, I need more fruits and veggies...I must of had too much junk! We went food shopping yesterday, and stocked up on our healthier options. Today Allie had salad for lunch and was so proud when she almost finished it, then she told me she felt so healthy. I want Emily to just see the way we eat (even though my eating habits are worse than Allie's) and understand that junk food just is a "treat" for maybe birthday parties or holidays, like it used to be in our house. It is definitely harder in NJ, when we are not in our home, and Allie can see others eat certain things that I wouldn't normally bring into the house and wants them too. We definitely are going back to the way we were eating when we started this family!

Everyone should have a family game night!

So over the summer pretty much, it has just started to pretty much become a weekly tradition that almost every Wedensday the girls and I go to my sister, Melissa's house for dinner. It's just a nice night to get together, let the kids play, vent, and sometimes we do something fun afterwards like movie in the park or go to Gavin's games before his season ended. Last week my mom came over for dinner as well. After dinner, we played a game Hedbanz. It was SO much fun. We played for hours before we realized it was 9:30. So my sister calls me this morning and says, Gavin was barely awake this morning before he said, "Mom it's Wedensday, are Aunt Sammy and the girls coming for dinner?". I'm not gonna lie, that warmed my wee wittle heart! He's gonna be 13 in October, meaning, we are gonna "lose" him soon. He won't think game nights with us are cool anymore, he won't appreciate hanging out with us and our "humor". He even invited my mom too, and my other sister came as well. We played Apples to Apples and it was pretty fun. I may buy a new game for next week. As much as I miss Adam and am "wishing" the time away until he comes home, I'm going to try to embrace the nights like this with my family. Then I will remind myself that hopefully soon enough, the four of us will be back here with our family, where we belong, having game night with everyone together.

Obviously, I am not a very good blogger!

Well, here we are! We are 7 months into this deployment. It feels SO good to say that. Life has certainly thrown us tons of curve balls this deployment. Adam was scheduled to in fact be home right now for his R&R to be home for Allie's birthday and hopefully mine. Well unfortunately, he had some major trouble with his back and had to go on R&R early...way early. He came home 3 months into the deployment. We had a wonderful time on R&R, but unfortunately when he left, it meant we had to face 8 months being apart head on. It has proved to be challenging, but it has also made us stronger. Allie knows Daddy will be home around Christmas time and she cannot wait! She has so many plans for when he comes home. She wants him to take her camping, fishing and he has to teach her how to play basketball. She doesn't know how to get the ball bouncing very long and needs help. We cannot WAIT for you to come home Daddy! 5 months and we get to be a family again!

May was a hard month for us as well. My grandmom got really sick and passed away. That was really hard to handle with out Adam. I missed him terribly during that. Emily also turned ONE! That was certainly the fastest year of my life. She was not walking, barely crawling by her first birthday. She started crawling when Adam came home for R&R. She had a bumblebee birthday, but HATES birthdays and cries hysterically whenever we sing Happy Birthday to ANYONE.

June and July flew by in the blink of an eye. I guess we stayed busy enough for it to go by that fast. We had a great 4th of July. The weeks really seem to just be ticking by.

Its now August and Allie is 4! Her birthday came and went so fast. She had a WONDERFUL birthday. She wanted a Lalaloopsy birthday and I tried my best to give her what she wanted. She was the happiest birthday girl and so grateful for all of her gifts. She has been playing nonstop with her new toys. She may be sassy, but she is always grateful. My birthday is in a few days, and I am actually getting a pedicure and my nails done! Shocker! I haven't gotten a pedicure since the day before I had Emily...I am desperate. Emily started WALKING the day before Allie's birthday. She really took off on Allie's birthday. Her first real mission walking...she walked into the bathroom, opened my mom's make up, took out her blush brush, and dunked it right in the toilet. Today she was almost running down the hallway. She is climbing all over the place, including places like the coffee table and the 2 step-step stool. She is certainly a different child than Allie. Allie did not find herself in this kind of trouble! Am I really ready for what Emily is getting ready to get herself into?! I am a little scared!

September is right around the corner and I cannot wait. I am getting Allie registered for preschool and I think time will go even faster then. I keep telling Adam we just have to get to September and it should really start moving then. I hope I am right, for both of our sakes. He is really missing the girls. We are almost there though! I firmly believe staying positive helps get us through...and minus a few bad days in there when things just felt really, really bad...I have stayed really positive. So, lets keep on going and before I know it, we will have a few weeks left!